Amy hesitated at the door of the Head of Group’s study, looked between Valerie’s now carefree figure dancing down the back stairs and the sheaf of papers annulling her marriage. Amy had thought Sherman and Valerie were just two very-like minded jerks. What if that had been Jeriah and her in a few years?
She looked back at Grandmother, who was still waiting for her to leave to call her grandchildren in for the second part of the surprise. “Martin mentioned I should try the maze sometime. Could I?”
“Be my guest. Do you have a contact number if you get lost?”
She almost checked, then tucked her phone away. “I don’t need one. He’ll find me.”
Grandmother smiled. “If he does, I hope you will still come around for our walks.”
“I will.”
That had been an entire quarter hour ago.
What if he just doesn’t care enough?
She wandered down the path around the garden that she had taken with Grandmother only yesterday. Anxiously, she glanced at the time and then back in the direction of the Mansion. Grandmother had said she had other things to discuss, and was giving her a bit of a lead—but how much? Maybe Grandmother had already told him, and he just didn’t care. Gareth’s words a few weeks back haunted her:
He’s in love with his work, Amy. There isn’t room for anything or anyone else.
She wandered into the maze, turning the corners without regard, more concerned that she was lost in her depressing thoughts than in a garden maze.
Suddenly, a wonderful birdsong came to life—not from the bush beside her, but from the phone in her hand. She picked up immediately.
“Hello?”
“Amery, thank goodness. Where are you?”
She could hear him running as he asked and the relief in his voice the moment she picked up.
“The maze behind the mansion. But uhm… I-I’m a bit lost,” she admitted sheepishly.
“Have you run into any landmarks? Anything stand out to you?”
She turned a corner, and just down the path was a small clearing with a giant cherry tree in full bloom around her.
“Cherry tree,” she said in a daze, wandering into the canopy of pink.
“Stay there.”
She plopped herself on a bench at the corner of the clearing and watched. Her phone was silent at her side, but she was no longer anxious, just staring at the sky and watching the birds overhead. Her heart had grown little fledgling wings in her chest. The sky was clear, obscured only by the lively pink of the cherry blossoms. The sun was warm, and the wind was a gentle breeze—just enough to cool and refresh, but barely enough to flutter the cherry petals. It would be a wonderful place to bring a book out.
“Hey.”
She glanced up, and her heart leapt into her throat and tears sprung into the corners of her eyes. She smiled.
“I’m getting a sudden sense of deja vu,” Jeriah said off-handedly, sitting down next to her.
“Why’s that? I’m pretty sure you’ve never had to come searching for me before.”
“I think our reunion after high school went something like, ‘Amy was birdwatching and tripped over a sleepy college student doing his readings out in the park on campus.’ Old acquaintances reunited, instant chemistry, proposal, annoying cousins, meddling grandmothers, you know.”
“I’m pretty sure I wrote it more eloquently,” she retorted.
He was gazing at her with an incredible grin, like he was happy just to see her again. She hoped that was what he thought as well.
“Here,” he said, handing her a dream-reader headset.
“I’m pretty sure you didn’t have a compact dream-reader on you in the backstory.”
“I forgot to return it,” he answered the question behind the comment. “And it happened to be in my bag today.”
“Are you sure I have permission to read this data?” She really didn’t understand him. First thing after chasing her down after his grandmother’s scheme was to talk about work? He really was a workaholic.
“Permission given,” he said carelessly. That was when she noticed that there wasn’t a memory card in the reader at all, and that the other end was linked up to him.
“Ready?”
The last time she had touched a dream-reader machine just to read someone’s mind, she’d gotten her boyfriend convicted of animal abuse, sexual harassment and manslaughter. She had still loved him then—thought she’d loved him.
Jeriah isn’t Cyril, Amy reminded herself. She cleared her mind as best she could and with her heart thumping loud enough to drown out her other thoughts, she pressed the start key.
After a few initial questions about basic profile information just to calibrate their thoughts, she turned to the question as to what they were doing:
“Ok. What do you want me to ask you?”
“Anything.” I just want you to be able to trust what I say. I had seen your dream-reader interview; it’s only fair.
“Oh.” Amy paused. She had started tapping notes out on the the emotional valence chart, marking what she could for ease of future readings.
“No one’s going to read this afterwards,” he commented. “It’s not being saved.”
Amy stopped correcting mental referrals with names with the realization and just focused on the thoughts and emotions showing up. What questions did she have for him? She had stopped wondering what she would ask if she could to hear their inner feelings on it as well. Finally, she found something innocent to start with: “Who did the interior decorating at your apartment?”
“What?” That’s what she wants to know?! What in the world. Is this another calibration test?
Amy offered an explanation: “The only thing Ryan ever said about you was that your apartment has great interior design. I guess I should ask what you talked about that time she was over, but—“ She was rambling. She stopped, and started listening to the thoughts and reading the valences showing up on the screen in front of her eyes.
I guess I should say Lynna? “Lynna did, technically. I did make a general request.” Bookshelves, desk. Ryan and I only talked about what Amy and I had talked about earlier.
“Right. And how’d you get here so fast?”
“I explored a lot of the maze when I was a kid.” Thankfully you didn’t wander anywhere I didn’t recognize and remember. And is this seriously the only kind of questions she’s going to ask?
Amy laughed at the partially perplexed, partially exasperated tone his thoughts had. Then she remembered something serious.
He tensed up, feeling the feedback in her change in mood.
“Where are you on Tuesday evenings when you get back late?”
“Tuesday evenings?” He didn’t seem to feel guilty, just surprised. His thoughts traced through a typical Tuesday, from home to the lab, from lab to dinner, and dinner down to South district—“Oh, data collection.” She got glimpses of a memory—the apartment, computers. Her eyes—Amy was surprised she showed up in the trace at all. “Remember that time I brought a trace home and you helped me translate it? I thought it was some kind of social anxiety but you looked at it and recognized PTSD right away?”
With the help of the memory glimpses, she remembered. “The night I asked why you wanted to be Head anyways.”
Amusement. Guilt. Resolution. They flickered quickly over the emotional valence measure before he responded. “Yeah. There was a participant that had injured her legs but really wanted to finish the experiment. So Dr. Syis asked someone to take one of the compact dream-readers out to finish.”
There were glimpses of the South district streets, and the inside of the house she had seen. There was a memory of a beautiful girl with bronze skin in a wheelchair. She was hooked up to the dream-reader and had tears on her face as she talked. Your ring— are you married?
I’m going to be. She caught a glimpse of herself. There was a rush of pride and affection. Then confusion at his own feelings.
I always wanted to get married. But like this…I don’t think I can. I hope you’re happy together.
Thank you. His thoughts hesitated. At least, he was happy? He couldn’t speak for her.
The memory continued, but Amy cleared her mind before she felt like she was intruding more. She’d seen enough to answer her question. He noticed a fresh feedback loop and stopped the memory.
“Why? Where did you think I was on Tuesday nights?”
She realized she was blushing and pressed the hold key on the dream-reader to avoid sharing her reaction with him back through the link.
“Nothing, nowhere, it’s…Gareth and I had the wrong idea.” She looked for something else to talk about before releasing the key.
“Amery, did you really think I was frequenting a brothel?”
She didn’t reply but knew he could feel her embarrassment.
Is that really the image I give off?
“Anyways, where did you think I was the nights I got back late?”
“Meetings? Hanging out with friends? I didn’t want to pry.” Amy’s too honest to do what she thought I did.
“Kinda. I went on walks with your grandmother.”
“Oh.”
His mental surprise was so alarming and in contrast to his soft utterance that Amy chuckled at the traitor thoughts.
She stared at the trace on the screen of the headset, fascinated by the valences and side thoughts. Being inside his head was like learning about someone new. The thoughts were so familiar, yet the emotions that held them together were so overwhelmingly strong and unlike him. She traced the emotional valences. “Did you have anything to ask me?”
There was a question in his mind, but he wasn’t putting it into clear terms.
“Go ahead.”
“Who’s Cyril?”
Amy steadied herself and reversed the link to show him her own memories.
“My ex.”
She showed Jeriah the story: how Cyril used to flatter her, buy her gifts, adore her—or at least act like he did. Then she’d convinced him to let her hook him up to a dream-reader.
“It was my fault. I broke my own fantasy.”
She showed him the dissected woodpecker Cyril’d given her for their anniversary, and the tall tales he spun. And then how he’d set fire to the lab and nearly killed someone. So she had stood in front of a jury, and testified against him. The last time she had seen him, it was through the bars of a courthouse
jail cell, and it had been to break things off formally.
She finished, and realized how simple it was to sum up her relationship with Cyril. She’s shown the counselor the story and the police his crimes. Ryan had known from being with her through it all. But it had never seemed so simple to explain to someone what still hurt and what didn’t. She felt a sense of relief.
“You were looking for stability,” Jeriah realized. She was watching his feed again. That’s why the money doesn’t matter. There was another trace of a feeling—realization, sympathy. “I’m sorry. What happened to you.” You didn’t deserve that, and you didn’t do anything wrong. Yet…I’m glad you’re here now. There wasn’t pity in the thoughts though, and her catharsis felt better. She didn’t want pity. She wanted a fresh start. And she’d finally been able to explain it without confusion or tears or anger.
“What are you going to do now?” she felt lighter.
“That depends.” On what you’re going to do.
“I didn’t take your grandmother’s money,” she pointed out.
I know. Please. I know it’s selfish, but read me. I just want you to know that I wish it wasn’t an act anymore. There are feelings behind them now.
Read him? Wasn’t that what she was doing? She traced her eyes along the emotional valences that were fluctuating through his mind now. Nervousness. Excitement. Anticipation. The willingness to accept whatever answer she had for him.
Amy closed her eyes and pressed the end button. She slipped the gear off her head.
“Amery?”
“You call me Amy in your thoughts.”
“Yeah.”
She knew what he wanted to tell her, and she wanted him to know that she trusted him enough to hear him just say it. Words should be enough to carry their message. She heard him pull off his headset and abandon the machine in a little pile of wires between them. She opened her eyes, not to screens and lines and graphs, but to the clear gray color of his irises.
“Amy.”
“Jer. What did you want me to hear?”
He hesitated, then took her hands in his own and tugged her gently close to him.
“Would you stay with me?”
“Yes.”
Final Word Count: 20,510
I originally wrote out the entire chase sequence in which they kept missing each other and finally ended up finding each other on campus because they realized they were both workaholics. But I realized that it really did nothing in terms of pacing because we know he went to look for her and that she was waiting for him to. So phone to the rescue!
The idea with the dream reader was actually written early on and then edited for this scene. I’m actually really satisfied with the way it came out ^^
Anyways, that’s the end of Contract Marriage! Comments, lingering questions, anything would be appreciated! :D