In Idyll, there is a place that appears different to all who encounter it. It is best described as a river, but whether it is a clear-glass stream or a lake of blood-thick ink, whether the building in the centre is a new cottage or a skyscraper ruin--or whether this structure exists at all--depends on the individual. This is The River Windrose, named for the petals that drift with the wind to the spaces of the unconscious.

Saturday, July 9, 2016

D:CM Unwelcome Guest

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The evening afterwards, Amy rang the bell of the penthouse apartment she would be staying in for the next week—and if everything worked out the way she thought it would—longer. She didn’t expect Jeriah to answer the door; he had mentioned a butler, and he had still been engrossed in data analysis when she left the lab an hour ago. 

The door opened. 

“…Gareth?” Amy stood in a daze, staring at the face of her high school nightmares in the doorway of her new fiancé’s apartment. A shirtless Gareth Krovstoff examined her with curious eyes.

“Are you here for my cousin?” Gareth laughed and took her hand. He pressed her fingers against his mouth salaciously, his eyes sliding down her sweater and jeans. She tried not to stare too long at his muscles, which were still glistening from sweat or a shower. “Is this his type?”

“Hands: Off.” Ryan appeared behind her and glared down at even Gareth, her eyes darkening. She squared her shoulders and the shadow made her loom even taller. 

“I didn’t know girls came with bodyguards now,” Gareth commented, looking up calmly and not letting go of Amy’s hand. His eyes narrowed on the duffel bag on her shoulder and the giant box in Ryan’s. “Or luggage.” 

Amy finally yanked her hand away. “Y-you— what are you doing here?”

Gareth raised an eyebrow. “I should be asking you that.” He crinkled his eyes at her. “You look familiar.”

“I-I—“ Amy threw her hair over her shoulder and faced him as confidently as she could. She had forgotten Jeriah had such unpleasant family. But that just meant Gareth was one of the people she had to fool. “My name is Amery Dahla; we went to high school together, remember? I’m Jeriah’s fiancé.”

Gareth’s expression scowled with suspicion and then realization. “Amy? My cousin’s fiancé? What—is this a joke?“ Gareth doubled over in laughter. 

Still standing awkwardly in the doorway with a giant duffel bag over her shoulder, Amy glanced up at Ryan, who was glowering at the baboon in the doorway. Finally, Ryan cleared her throat. 

Gareth moved aside, waving his hands in welcome. “Welcome then, welcome. Hah, who knew even my cousin could pull his head out of a textbook for long enough to pick up a girl.”

Amy steeled her nerves and swept in like she owned the place. The apartment was spacious—and gorgeously simple. Directly to the right of the entryway was a neat kitchenette with an island counter. Ahead, down two steps, was a comfortable seating area with an L-shaped couch leaned against another island surface, facing a lone plush chair, a wall of bookshelves and a view of Fairen city at night. There were two doors on opposite sides of the room. Amy set her duffel on the seating area island. 

“Just leave my stuff here for now,” she directed Ryan, who had momentarily forgotten Gareth to admire the interior design. Amy turned to the door on the left. 

“That’s my cousin’s room,” Gareth called. Closing the door, he had stopped laughing and was smirking at them. 

“I know,” Amy shot back immediately. He raised an eyebrow at her. Mistake, she realized, but she couldn’t quite put her finger on why. She opened the door anyways. “I’ll be right back. Put on a shirt, would you?” 

Jeriah’s room consisted of a just a plush king-sized bed facing the door. There was another window here, as well as more bookcases. She wandered quickly into the bathroom on the left—giant bath, shower, sink, mirror, walk-in closet. Wow. Amy washed her hands and splashed a little water on her face and through her hair to give her an excuse. 

She took a deep breath and cleared her head to take stock. The other door might have led to the room the butler used. Maybe a study. That wasn’t the problem; Gareth was. Was he the butler? No way. Ok. Potentially helpful butler—missing; annoying cousin—present. She took a deep breath before heading back into the main room.

Gareth was lounging at the kitchenette island. He had gotten a bottle of beer, but not a shirt. She turned away, half irritated, half trying not to stare. Whatever misgivings she had about Gareth Krovstoff, his body was much better built than his cousin’s. Gareth leaned back, watching her movements with amused, unsettling eyes.  

“So. You’re my cousin’s fiancé?” 

Amy wasn’t sure whether he sounded more surprised that it was her or that his cousin actually had a fiancé. 

She replied with her own question. “What are you doing here, Gareth?” 

“What, I can’t pay my dear cousin a visit?”

“A surprise visit,” she snapped.

Gareth shrugged, but Amy noticed he didn’t contradict her. She let out a small sigh. Gareth chuckled. 

“I would offer you a drink now, but you’ve obviously already helped yourself.”

Gareth held the bottle up in mock salute. “Where’s my cousin?” 

“Late night,” she replied, pulling her phone out of her bag. She was surprised by how casual her tone was. “He’s meeting with Dr. Syis about a tricky participant.” 

“But it’s the night his dear fiancé’s moving in. You’d think he’d be here to help you unpack.” He made a good point, but Gareth’s voice was entirely too innocent to be genuine. 

She shrugged noncommittally. She was already sending Jeriah a text, thankful he had remembered to give her his number last night. 

“And the butler isn’t even here tonight,” Gareth continued. “Although Mr. Grouch here could probably be his stand-in.”

Amy ignored Gareth—and the urge to snap back at him—and turned to the stuff sitting on the couch. She turned back to Ryan, who stood next to the stairs in front of the stuff with her arms crossed and her eyes narrowed on Gareth. “Ryan, give me a hand with the books?”

Amy hopped down the two stairs and scanned the titles on the wall under the pretense of looking for room for her own books. She was surprised to see a few familiar names among the reference books. “We’ll put them next to the journals for now,” she said, pushing some of the books to one side to make room. “Just the textbooks. Just leave the novels in the box for now.”

An hour later, with everything she couldn’t find a place for haphazardly thrown in Jeriah’s room, Amy was sitting between the oddest stare-down. Ryan hadn’t stopped glaring at Gareth, and Gareth was still watching Amy’s every move. 

“You haven’t eaten,” Gareth commented mildly. 

“We ate before coming,” Amy lied. “What about you?” 

“I’m drinking in my meal now,” he said, waggling his eyebrows at her. Once Amy understood what he meant, she ignored him.

Silence. 

“Is this usually what you do? Just sit on the couch and wait for him?” 

“Usually I’m not here without him,” she replied as evenly as she could. She pretended she was talking to a patient. “I just moved in tonight, remember?” 

Silence again. There wasn’t even a clock in the room to count the passing time. Ryan kept glaring at Gareth, and Gareth just lounged on the couch, showing off his muscles and sipping his beer. 

“It’s nearly midnight. Shouldn’t Sir Stares-a-lot be heading home soon?”

That was a good point. “Ryan…the trains will stop running soon.“ 

“It’s fine,” Ryan replied tersely. Amy nodded, understanding. Ryan wasn’t leaving her side until she met with Jeriah, especially not alone with Gareth. Amy checked her phone. Still no reply. 

More silence. 

“Would you stop staring?” Amy shifted uncomfortably under Gareth’s intense scrutiny. He’d been staring for hours now probably, and she had been fidgeting with her ring. She felt like he was going to suddenly see through her and call her out. 

“Only if your bodyguard here returns the favor.”

“Please.”

Ryan opened her phone with a snort. After a moment she started scrolling through the latest designs on Passion Fruit, her favorite clothing brand.

Even more silence. 

“Are you going to the luncheon next Saturday?” 

“Luncheon?” Amy shut her mouth quickly, racking her brain for mentions of a lunch date. The only date Jeriah had told her about was that they were meeting his grandmother at the end of the month, when she would decide who would inherit the title of Head of Krovstoff Group.

“Yeah. Lunch on Saturday. Yes or no?”

Amy drew a blank. Was it a family thing? Would Jeriah usually attend a Saturday luncheon? 

Fortunately, she was saved by the sound of the door opening. 

“Cuz!” 

“Jeriah!”

“Finally!” 

Everyone greeted the door at the same time. Jeriah looked up from the door and took in the situation, the surprise superseded only by his apparent weariness. He hung his bag on a hook on the wall to the left of the door. “Guests. Hi. Amery, sorry for being late.”

“It’s ok,” she said before really thinking about it. It was not really ok. But what else could she say? 

Jeriah bypassed Gareth entirely and greeted Ryan. “You’re Norton, right? Ryan Norton? You were in my AP Computer Science class senior year of high school. You’re a friend of Amery’s?”

 Ryan seemed surprised to be addressed—and remembered so clearly. She shook his hand. “Yes. Amy’s best friend. I was helping her unpack.” 

“Thank you for taking care of her,” he said, looking Ryan in the eyes seriously. He sounded sincere before turning back to Amery.

“Sorry I’m late,” he apologized again. “Kevin was in an accident and I was at the hospital. It looks like you’ve mostly been able to settle in?”

“Just fine,” Amy replied, shifting uneasily. She wondered if they should have some kind of greeting ritual. A kiss? He looked like he could use a hug. “What happened? Is Kevin ok?” 

She had other unvoiced questions: Why hadn’t he at least texted her back? Did he usually get back so late? Did his annoying cousin usually show up for unexpected visits? More immediately—who was Kevin? 

“He woke up just before I left. He broke a few ribs and lost a lot of blood but the doctors said he would be fine.” Jeriah cracked a smile. “He had enough energy to ask for a month off and plane tickets. I think he’ll be ok. Sorry I didn’t call you. My phone died before I left the lab.” He plugged the dead scrap metal in and she couldn’t tell if he was serious or just a very convincing actor. 

She let out a breath in relief. Whoever the guy was, at least he was ok. Kevin sounded like close friend—and an employee—the missing butler, probably. 

“It’s late,” Jeriah turned back to Ryan. “Do you want to stay over tonight? It’d have to be Kevin’s bed though.” He gestured to the room Amy hadn’t explored. 

“If you don’t mind, I’ll take the couch.”

Jeriah nodded. “I’ll grab a blanket. There’s a washing machine in the bathroom as well, if you wanted to shower or wash your clothes before tomorrow.”

“Thank you.” Ryan hesitated. 

“Of course.”

Amy nodded with a smile and Ryan disappeared to the guest room for a shower. 

Gareth piped up. “Hello? Any greeting for your kinsman?”

“You didn’t tell me you were staying at my place,” Jeriah snapped.  

“And you didn’t tell me you were engaged, so fair,” Gareth threw back.

“Of course, how inconsiderate of me. Amery, this is my cousin Gareth. He studied business at The University at Cornsilk and freeloads at my place when he’s back in town.”

“I noticed.”

“Wonderful,” Jeriah said so seriously she almost laughed. “Gareth, could you stay with mom and dad or something?”

“Why? Since Mr. Norton’s taking the couch, couldn’t I stay on guest bed?”

“What, there are three people here—“

“And I assume Amery’s sleeping with you? She went straight to your room when she got here.” Gareth waggled his eyebrows again. 

“Of course. Whatever. Just get out, Gareth. We’ll talk in the morning.”

“I’ll entertain myself,” Gareth assured, heading for the guest room before Jeriah could protest. He winked at Amy. “See you in the morning, cupcake!”

The door closed, leaving Amy alone with Jeriah for the first time since their little contract began. They stared at each other for a long minute before Amy broke the silence: 

“Sorry.”

“It’s not your fault. You had to deal with something unpleasant even though it was supposed to be a relaxing move.” He sighed, heading for his room. At the door, he sighed. “Come on then.”

She followed him into the room and noticed the bag with her clothes still sprawled over his bed. She grabbed it quickly. “Excuse me.” 

“No, no, you can use the bed,” Jeriah said. He had been headed for the bathroom then paused. “You haven’t showered yet, right? Go ahead and take one first. I’m going to grab a blanket for Mr. Norton.”

“Miss,” Amy corrected. She was too tired to argue and found a change of clothes in her duffel. “Although you can just call her Ryan.”

Jeriah processed this sleepily. “Right. Okay. I’m glad she asked for the couch then.” He stifled a yawn. 


“Goodnight, Jeriah,” Amy replied, equally tired, and plodded to the shower without complaint. Today had been too long. 


NEXT (Interlude: Friends)

Notes:
I actually really like this scene... :x I had to edit the ordering of some things because it was awkward the first time around, but I kinda liked this scene once it was written and decided. I had a few early renditions with Kevin Knight, the butler, but didn't actually end up using him.

Wednesday, July 6, 2016

D:CM Friend


“You’re getting married?” 

Ryan Norton, Amery’s best friend and roommate since she came back home to  Fairen City, was staring at her with a look that wavered between elated surprise, suspicion and incredulity. “Sit down, to whom?” Ryan brought out two cups of ice cream and sat her down in the back room. 

“Do you remember Jeriah Krovstoff from high school? Our year.” 

“Krovstoff? Was he the loud one or the geeky one?”

“Uh, the geeky one I guess,” Amy replied, giggling.

“Did you guys even talk? Study together?”

Amy shrugged. “Not more than just passing comments. He helped me with Stats homework once. And I lent him my notes for the Psych exam.” 

“You never told me you were seeing someone,” Ryan commented, brushing her hair back and pushing her glasses up seriously. “And why now? Didn’t you just start a new job? Wait. First. How was work?” 

Amy laughed. “Work was great. Dr. Syis is really energetic and helpful, and all the grad students are just incredible. The campus at Fair Ridge is beautiful, and our lab is built into a hill in a lovely little glade.”

“You were interested in the psych program there, weren’t you?” 

“Fair Ridge has a brilliant PsyD program,” she agreed. “But since I’m not on the clinical psych route anymore…I’m not sure. Dr. Syis mentioned a good Cognitive Science program as well. And I’m already connected to the lab.” She shrugged. “We’ll see.”

“You’ll be fine.” 

Amy pushed her ice cream around nervously and Ryan conceded, turning the subject back to what Amy had wanted to talk about. “But before that, you’re apparently getting married. Explain.”

So Amy told her how Jeriah Krovstoff had also been working in the lab she joined. She recounted the deal that he had offered her, the conditions they talked through, and his offer for her to stay with him for the next week to get used to being around each other outside of work. She fell silent, realizing with every word how much everything had changed since this morning. 

“And you said yes?”

Amy looked down at her ice cream, avoiding the suspicion and—was that irritation?— in Ryan’s gaze and just nodded. 

“Did he blackmail you?” Ryan’s voice had dropped two octaves down and sounded almost like a growl. 

“No!” 

“Bribery?” 

“No—well, not really. He did offer to cover all financial concerns basically.” 

“That’s bribery, honey.” Ryan stood up. “I’m going with you to work tomorrow.”

“Wait, Ryan. I-I actually want to do this.”

“What? No. Just because one guy turned out to be an asshole—“ 

“This isn’t because of Cyril,” Amy said, staring at the empty cup in front of her. The temperature seemed to drop a few degrees around her and she felt a something heavy crawling around in the corner of her heart it had been banished to.

“Your parents? You can’t let them get to you like this!”

“Not really. But it’s not a bad idea.” 

Ryan was silent, standing there, glowering down. Amy chanced a glance up and realized that her friend’s expression was suddenly more soft than severe. 

“I’m meeting his grandmother in a week. She’ll be the final arbiter for this match.” 

“You’re the final arbiter,” Ryan reminded, brushing everything aside. “What if he’s just using you?”

“What do you mean?”

“You’re staying at his apartment. What if he kidnaps you?”

“He could kidnap anyone then. Why me?”

“Why not you? He can do terrible things to you, incriminate you, ruin your reputation, kill you.”

Amy laughed at Ryan’s reaction. “I don’t think he’s that kind of person.”

“Don’t 80% of rapes happen with an acquaintance or something? You should be more careful.”

“I’ll be ok,” Amy said, looking out over the night skyline in a bit of a daze. “I was surprised too. Maybe not as suspicious, but it threw me off. But it seems more like a chance to start over. Like another shot …after Cyril. She flinched. She felt a little colder just putting the word “Cyril” near anything like what Ryan was saying could happen. 

”If you’re thinking about it that way…then you said he’s doing this to get his grandmother to leave him the company. What if he calls it off then?”

Amy shrugged, oddly calm as she fidgeted with the engagement ring on her finger. “Then I sell the ring for tuition money and life goes on.”


Finally, Ryan tugged Amy to her feet. “Come on. If you’re really going to do this, then I want to meet your fiancé at least.”


Notes:
Ryan's character didn't originally exist. Amy was supposed to be alone the entire time. I decided to give Amy someone to bounce things off of and as Ryan appeared by comparing notes and whatever came to mind, I was just more and more intrigued by her. 

In my inspiration idea I presented a close friend with a wedding invitation and they gave me Ryan's reaction and insisted on going to meet the guy with me. Ryan fulfills that role as well. 

Functionally though, this scene is a bit of a transition, and also my lame nudge towards the suspension of belief that occurs in any otome game. (Of course this is based off my otome gaming experience; I have no other romance experience!) This is definitely an unbelievable situation and in any other world it would probably turn out very very wrong for Amy. 

Sunday, July 3, 2016

D:CM Contract


After her first day back in a lab since she came back from college, Amy found herself sitting in the VIP room of a classy restaurant she’d never thought she’d set foot in. Live music played in the background and all the food was carried out with a flourish. Sitting opposite the room of her was a high school classmate and now coworker who had brought up the strangest proposal on her first day in the lab.  

“Hey, Amery. Thank you for stopping by.” 

“So let me get this straight,” she said, setting her stuff down and getting to business as soon as the door shut. “You need me to pretend to be fiancé in front of your grandmother, the head of Krovstoff Group. As in, the Krovstoff group whose hotel we’re sitting in now.”

“Yes. Although it’s not really pretend.”

“Right. Everything’s legal and binding. Just…no actual relationship.”

Jeriah Krovstoff nodded. He seemed eerily calm. 

“Why should I accept?”

“I won’t threaten your admission to the lab,” he assuaged her immediately. He still seemed calm, even as he admitted that he wasn’t going to resort to blackmail. “All I have to offer you is the financial support of the Krovstoff Group. Potentially a life of luxury.”

“Seems like you could find a lot of young ladies that would jump at that offer. Why me?”

“Honestly? Because you’re the first unmarried woman I’ve run into since running into this situation.”

“Terrible decision-making standards.” 

Jeriah’s mouth turned up in wry amusement. “The fact that we were high school classmates and you’re working in the same lab contributes. And I saw your interview readings.” 

Amy felt a shiver run down her spine. The Dreams lab had a very interesting interview using the dream-reader, which let the psychologist—or in her case, employer—have a glimpse into the very thoughts and feelings of a patient—or interviewee. It had been one of her first times on the client-side of the dream-reader; she had been able to review her readings before the interview officially ended, and been quite fine with the whole experience actually. That is, until a few seconds ago. 

“You—I…What did you see?” She asked, struggling to keep her composure. 

“A clean record,” he told her reassuringly. “A mild anxiety associated with relationships despite constant stable emotional valences was interesting though. I thought it would make you a suitable candidate for a contract-type marriage.”

She let a small sigh escape her. “I’ll admit, I don’t consider myself exactly in the market for romance anymore.” She looked back up at him. If she was hooked up to the dream-reader now, he would be reading all about her surprise that such an opportunity had presented itself again. Instead, all she showed him was a grim acceptance. “I want all living and insurance expenses covered and a stipend for entertainment and savings. And general freedom to live my life the way I want.” She paused. “And the right to a peaceful divorce, without any of this being revealed.”

“Done, with some conditions.”

She nodded for him to continue.

“Generally, don’t embarrass me or shame the family name.”

She pointed out that she hadn’t grown up in the same social society as him, but she’d do her best. “Anything specific?” 

“1. Don’t cheat on me.”

She nodded. She didn’t plan on it.

“2. You’ll have to accompany me to social events and talk to people and press. That’ll be an impediment to your usual routine no doubt.”

“I’ll do my best.”

“3. Grandmother wants an heir. So you have to be ok with kids.” He paused, a little awkward for the first time, and she caught on to the implications. 

She cringed a little. “Does that mean….”

“Yeah,” he replied flatly. “Although I doubt anyone would notice if it was someone else’s.”

Amy’s face scrunched up in disgust then she shook her head. “That would violate rule one.”

Jeriah laughed, and she thought he seemed surprised. “4. This should be easy for you: Go to grad school and get an education.”

“We’re assuming I can get in.”

Jeriah waved his hand dismissively. “Your application isn’t as weak as you think it is, and Dr. Syis will write you a letter of rec. The Group will pay for whatever tuition issues there are. You just need to graduate.”

She couldn’t keep the excitement out of her eyes when she realized that all her headaches about paying for college could be taken care of—not just college, she reminded herself. Life expenses…anything. “Masters or doctorate? Any specific field? Do I need business experience?”

“Whatever you want.” He actually laughed when she sighed in relief. “You don’t even need to do anything with it after graduating. If you just want to stay home and take care of the heir, that’s your pejorative.”

“What’s the point then?”

“It’s a test of caliber,” he said, sniffing a little. 

Amy laughed sarcastically, but the excitement was catching. She could get a degree in ornithology and do nothing but bird-watch and read for the rest of her life. Or she could stay in school for the rest of her life and never worry about working. “What else?”

“Finally, I maintain control of the accounts. I sanction every transaction made.” 

Amy narrowed her eyes. “So do you want a brainless nanny or an educated trophy? Make up your mind.”  

“I’m ok with either,” Jeriah replied airily. “As long as Grandmother is convinced our marriage is real and you don’t shame the family name, I’m fine with whatever you want to do with your life.”

“I can’t tell if you’re trying to be considerate or just an idiot.”

“I’m a rich little boy who never cared for relationships and needs to have a fiancé in a week.”

“Desperate,” she supplied. 

He opened his mouth retort but thought better of it and shook his head with a smile. “So what do you think? Have I scared you off? ” He held up a rose-gold ring with two diamonds set in it, symbolic of their contract. “You don’t have to accept, and you’re free to leave whenever you feel like before the actual wedding date, whenever it ends up being. No explanation needed, and you can keep the ring to sell as severance pay. If I don’t end up as Head of the Group, you can leave too. I just thought you would be reconcilable to the idea.”

She stared at the ring between his fingers. It was the first time since she left Cyril that she considered the prospect of a romantic relationship—it wasn’t exactly romantic actually. But that was what made it so appealing. Her parents would be satisfied that she was married, and she could live her usual life with a lot more money behind her. She could really “settle down” while still chasing her “dreams and silly birds”. Sure she might be lonely, but that’s why she had colleagues and classmates. 

She reached out and slipped the ring over her left hand ring finger. 

“Deal.”


Notes:
This scene was probably rewritten like 5 times in its entirety without changing what it essentially is: exposition and a place for the original inspiration. The inspiration for the story came from an idle thought for terms of a contract that would kind of be ideal for me. 

Amy's character in this scene also radically changed between edits. There was a lot more ranting and complaining in the beginning versions, and a long emo rant somewhere. The sassiness didn't appear until maybe edit 4. I didn't really see that from Amy as a character, but I liked the sassiness and decided to keep it. Her character had to be changed forward in other scenes to reflect bits of this new character trait. 


Friday, July 1, 2016

D:CM Proposal

Dreamreader: Contract Marriage

“Is this a proposal?” 

It had been a year since Amery “Amy” Dahla broke up with her ex-boyfriend after safely seeing him to a police asylum. Nine months since she graduated from college only to work in her best friend’s ice-cream store. Three hours since she was finally hired as a part-time research assistant in the Dream’s Lab. And about three minutes since she remembered the name of the other, vaguely-familiar research assistant who was now asking her to marry him. 

“Without the emotional valence, I think it is better termed a contract,” Jeriah replied. He watched her for a sign of response.i

“A life-long contract.” Amy made herself keep her gaze level. What kind of person offered to bind themselves to someone they barely knew? 

But there were other thoughts on her mind as well. After a long silence, Amy held her hand out to shake his. “Let’s talk.”

If he was crazy for proposing, she was insane for accepting. Well, that was fine. She wasn’t looking for love anymore. 


Notes:
This is technically a sequel to an unfinished story (lol). Hopefully though, everything is readable without the context of the original story. :) Looking forward to posting and I hope it's enjoyable.

Thursday, June 30, 2016

HI I exist

TL;DR: Hi I'm back after 6 months of not even a status update >,< Sorry. Also, new site and story notices.

HI ok we know I suck at updating.

Life
Life has been just work. I was really busy with two (part-time) jobs for a while and will be transitioning to a full-time one soon. I hope to get back to posting!
This blog will primarily be for writing work! 
Ramblings of an Inkdrop:  will be primarily for life updates and any other ramblings like this section is for. 
Level 1 (Healthy) Human is a log of health-related things I'm doing. This is mainly for my friend and trainer so that she knows I'm keeping up with my workouts, but hopefully entertains other people too! :)

Writing
I insist that I will finish Schmetterling before July 6th, when I'm leaving for a vacation with friends to Ireland :)
Meanwhile, I have finished Dreamreader: Contract Marriage, which is kind of a sequel to the unfinished Dreamreader: Psycho Lovers. I've started posting it on Wattpad here, but I'll be posting it here on TRW as well. It's not really pretty, but the story is finished and I'm just slowly posting parts when I remember to. I'll be posting maybe one part every few day or so starting this weekend so not to create a sudden influx after such a long hiatus. XD

I wish I had an assistant to just make blog posts for me and advertise stories and design covers.

BUT HI. I'M BACK :D



Monday, November 30, 2015

TRW: Desdemon

Another NaNoWriMo successfully under my belt!

I intended to write Edge/ Legend...but really ended up writing a story called Schmetterling. About 15K of it is non-Schmetterling stuff like other stories, rants, and stuff for grad school applications, but it's still 50,000 words!

Below is one of these non-Schmetterling pieces, the River Windrose scene for Desdemon Enelaizon. it gets into some tarot stuff, but hopefully understandable. Please enjoy!

WC: 1,553

A lightning bolt shot up through the clear night sky. At the point where the electricity joined sky and earth, there was the black and white shape of a man. Then the monotone image seemed to settle into a three-dimensional shape, and color washed into to the man. The scene returned to one of tranquility—or as close to tranquility as it ever was. 

Around the man and the pool of water he stood in was a river of fire. Friendly orange-yellow flames climbed, lava-like, up a slope; then in the distance, they suddenly split, creating a great pillar of fire that stretched unfathomably up and down. 

The man gazed at the great pillar with a bitter smile. The pillar of fire was his gateway to his home: the Blackmist that existed everywhere yet was the “nothing” that suspended the nonphysical world. Symbolically speaking, the pillar was his ladder up or down to the realms mortals called “Heaven” and “Hell”. But along with the comfort and familiarity that a home ought to bring, the great pillar of fire also filled this man with a sense of homesickness and longing.

He reached his hand out and suddenly he was floating directly before the pillar. Hot air swept this body’s black curls around his face. Being so close ought to have scorched any living thing to a crisp. But this was all a gentle breeze to him. The flames that barreled at immeasurable speeds up and down in the pillar felt to his hand sitting in it like the cleansing water of a gentle stream or relaxing bath to a mortal. This world, the purely spiritual, was where he belonged. 

He pulled his arm away and his senses returned to the body that was standing in the pool of water.

“You chose this,” a voice boomed in the landscape. “You confined yourself to a physical body, to a mortal soul, bound by the weaves of Destiny.” 

The voice materialized as a twin of himself: only this twin had ashen skin the grey color of stone where his was a light bronze; the twin had dark orange irises, the color of fire and burning sun, where his were a deep ocean blue; the twin had wispy black hair that occasionally sent off sparks of light and fire, whereas his hair was still black, but normal curls that covered his head. Even the voice of this twin was more ethereal and splendid, although his normal voice was already baritone that mortals likened more towards music than speech.
He called this twin self the Sixteenth, after the sixteenth aspect of the Major Arcana; it was the Tower. And the Sixteenth called him, bound to a mortal body and soul, Desdemon Enelaizon. 

Desdemon faced the Sixteenth calmly. “Yes. We did choose this.”
The Sixteenth showed no regret or irritation. It was not in conflict with the mortal Desdemon. The Sixteenth served the great and common Will of the Arcana, and this body named Desdemon served as its vessel. But the Sixteenth had some points of Desdemon’s life that it did not agree with.

Desdemon too showed the Sixteenth neither annoyance nor resentment. He turned away from the pillar of fire. Although flames crackled throughout the river of fire, Desdemon himself stood in a shallow pool of water that barely covered his bare feet. Water and flame maintained a boundary there in the area around him. Here the tongues of the fire seemed curled into gentle waves, and there the water turned to steam and flickered like a candle wick. Around this inexplicable boundary raged fire. 

But further out, beyond the shape of the thin river, was pitch dark. The river and the pool Desdemon stood in were suspended in nothing but darkness, impenetrable to the senses but comforting at the same time. It too, reminded Desdemon of his original home—the Sixteenth’s home. 

“The mortal part of your soul houses here,” the Sixteeth said, his deep voice paradoxically sounding over the entire of the landscape yet not too loud for a normal, private, conversation. “Mortals gather strength to their souls and fortify their anima in their private place. For us though, this is the gate homeward.” The Sixteenth turned gravely to Desdemon. “For you, mortal soul, this is where I, the eternal soul, will wait. You will need me in the course of your mortal life. And I will be here every time.”

The Sixteenth turned away and walked into the flames. Behind them were the ruins a small building that had housed an altar to the Aspect of the Tower. Desdemon followed the Sixteenth towards it too, but when he walked, the pool of water followed him. He stepped in the small temple and the pool of water grew to encompass a space  the size of a modest gazebo. 

The one-room, open-air building was nothing but a heap of stone with a broken domed ceiling and crumbling pillars, and the altar itself was nothing but a fractured pedestal, but they still offered Desdemon, and the Sixteenth, solace and strength: Inside the space of the temple, the crackle of the River and the roar of the pillar seemed to fade to white noise; resting on the broken altar was a chain as dark as the blackness beyond the River. Currently, the chain curled into a neat pocket-sized coil, but in its weaponized form extended twelve feet long and conducted a whip of destruction. 

Desdemon left the chain as it was and rested on a large chunk of rubble. In the spaces of air between the temple’s broken pillar played mirages of mortal lives and thoughts. He saw the city he had buried under earth and ash just that day, and the cries of despairing mortals as they beheld the desolation of their homes. It would not be for many years, Desdemon knew, that they would see the purification that the quake had brought.

He banished these images with a casual sweep of his long fingers. He did not retreat within himself to review the business of the Tower and the Sixteenth. 
Now he saw familiar faces: souls the Sixteenth had cleansed before and favored. Some of these had the Tower’s Gift of Purification: an ability that could take any physical form apart and recreate it in a more desired configuration. As the form was purified, it appeared black and white, as Desdemon’s body had when he first entered his River Windrose. 

Desdemon let his gaze linger on a girl that had been named after his own chosen moniker. She was covered in soot and despair, tears running from her eyes as she escaped her home. Trying times awaited her still. But it was all a process. Gaining the Sixteenth’s favor was a destructive ordeal, but it left the strongest branches of a person’s soul uncovered and free to flourish.
The images faded again, and this time a gentle tune hummed through the air. Then in the largest space and that only, a vision started playing again. It focused on a young girl, running carefree through a field and chasing the birds that flew overhead. 

The Sixteenth appeared in his peripheral vision, also examining the new scene. “You heard about the Tenth’s prophecy for your mortal self then. About this…other soul, who has been inextricably tied to our mortal soul.”

“Silence spoke to me of a soulmate,” Desdemon confirmed, naming specifically the Aspect of Destiny in the Tenth, the Wheel of Fortune. 

They watched the girl chase the birds and turn, smiling and laughing and out of breath. Desdemon swept his fingers to the side again and the scene and melody faded, leaving nothing but water and the river of fire beyond it. 

“The Tenth also told you of the Knot in your threads.”

“Cadence spoke of a complication in our destinies,” Desdemon acknowledged, this time naming the Aspect of Fate in the Wheel of Fortune. 

“Blame the idiotic and fickle Tenth if your mortal soul must cast blame to anything.”

“I do not blame Tone,” translated Desdemon, naming the third and final Aspect of Luck in the Wheel of Fortune.

The Sixteenth brought a still of the girl back into view. The image wavered, like a candle flame approaching its death, and for a brief moment, Desdemon made out the image of another boy, with golden hair and dark blue-violet eyes. He drew a long, thin breath, knowing instinctively that this was the “complication”. The screen returned briefly to image of the innocent girl, and then vanished altogether.

The Sixteenth paid Desdemon’s reaction no heed. Its voice was just as grand yet cold when it addressed him: “The Tenth will speak to you here in time and of more detail.”

Desdemon stood and stepped out of the temple as though trying to run from the Sixteenth’s next words; the entire river of fire turned into a searing white in anticipation. His form turned black and white and a crackle of electricity jumped from the water as he tried to pull himself out of the River Windrose, but the Sixteeth’s words haunted him: 


“Always know, mortal me, that eternal me shall be ever here, at your fingertips. When your mortal heart shatters inconsolably, you will need me, and I will destroy her.” 

Monday, October 26, 2015

TRW: Kazerath Rizea

I realized that I had written this a while ago but not posted it! Since I still don't have Dreamreader ready, this is an update!

The character in this TRW snippet is Kazerath Rizea, who is really my brother's character. I don't think he's been detailed on in anything here, but he could potentially show up anywhere. Hopefully this descriptor scene shows some information about Kazerath. 

WC: 1,009

“Keep watch,” Kazerath told his apprentice. “I will be meditating.” He settled down and retreated to the Windrose. 

Crimson rapids greeted him. The dominant feature was a brightly-colored tree from which the blood rapids flowed. Rings of color decorated the tree: the largest was a purple crescent moon with little sets of wire-like marks that occasionally glowed. Pink and gray halos made rings around branches and roots, interspersed by black blade-like patterns that moved over the wood. Buckets of paint for his amusement hung off the branches. The tree would have looked comical with all its colors and markings, except that each set of marks represented Kazerath’s membership in a group of legendary power and reflected his own ability.
Kazerath himself floated perfectly balanced over the hilt of 14 swords that jutted forth from between the roots of the tree. Directly below him, where a shadow ought to have played on the water, was a void. The void followed him if he shifted his meditative floating position, but did not appear through the tree, if he chose to turn and scale its short height and rest between the branches. He might have a cup of tea here without the magical pressure of the blades and the void beneath him. And if he wasn’t meditating on a problem of some sort, he would usually relax in the tree, gazing out at the river and the scenes that played on both shores.

The banks of the river were polar opposites. One side was a wasteland of weapons—those of the people he had slain. In the waves of the River, Kazerath could see the faces of those gone and dead—many by his hand. Sometimes their voices haunted him as well. More than once he had intended to meditate peacefully only to be caught up chatting with a restless spirit. Some were friendly and forgave him, permitting him to use and practice with their lost weapons. More often they were hostile, and loudly distracted the peaceful mental landscape. The dead could not usually intrude in the realm of the Windrose, but Kazerath knew that every creature he killed deserved at least a separate sanctuary in his memory. He spent most of his time there—either sitting in solemn observance from the spot above the fourteen swords, or on the banks of the dead, practicing so he could prevent those on the living side to from crossing over and spilling their flesh and blood into the red river. 

The other side was an endless playground on which silhouettes of the living dwelled. This side was bright and colorful, but not without its dangers. After all, he was the training general of the elite Guard of the Ayami military. Visions and memories of the demanding training Wall showed up as often as the cluttered office his father, a professor of magical lore. Yet these brief glimpses of his family and friends that appeared kept him going when he was away from them.

Today Kazerath decided he wanted a little more respite. These days he just wished for the old times when he could just sprawl out on the couch and talk to his wife. But Elestia was over two years dead now, since the Lightspeed Battle. Training the Fatespinner had always been his destiny, and as talented and well prepared for that task Kazerath was, some days he felt the pressure take hold of him. He rose from his spot and followed a sprawling tree root towards the living shore of his River. A couch materialized there—the couch that had been in his apartment near the palace. That had burned down many years ago in the Hundred Day Siege. Nova had appeared after that, and Kazreath hardly saw his home or family after that. But in the illusion of the River, his wife sat calmly next to him, sipping tea as she browsed through pages of political text. Demitrin—their daughter, now an Object of Holena— would be practicing her aim, throwing her three magical stilettos at the same point on the wall. Her younger brother, Wyn—now the Ancilla Queen of Cups—would be playing with sparks of magical energy in his palms, keeping a quiet ear out for his father or Uncle Wen. 

“I’ve been so tired lately,” he told the illusion of his wife. “Rielle’s ranger found the Gate of the Immortals. I think it’s a sign the Final Battle’s coming up soon.” He reached his hand out even though he knew he wouldn’t be able to touch her. The Elestia before him was just a mirage created of his memories. “Nova’s shaping up well. I don’t want to jinx anything, but I think he’ll be ready to face the Fatum.”

Kazerath stopped trying to touch the illusion. “I miss you,” he confided. Nova fighting Fatum, the legendary world-ending monster, was only part of the Final Battle. There were other people fighting with him, some of whom had started off worse than Nova. He hoped his drilling would pay off. “I trust the team, but…I wish you were fighting with me.” Nothing would change that. Aside from maybe Wen, his pilot and best friend, Elestia had had the best synergy with him, both in and out of combat. 

Abruptly, the mirage of his happy family vanished. When he arrived in the River that session, the sky had been murky and clouded, reflecting his unfamiliarity with his external setting. But now, above him, the sky cleared into a russet sunset, with only a few fluffy clouds to mar the continuity. Kazerath’s face turned serious again and he headed back towards the tree. His purpose for meditating more or less complete, Elestia—or the memory of her—would not permit him to dawdle when there was work he could do. When he opened his eyes in the real world, he would be all the more prepared to face the challenges within the Gate of Immortals. He closed his eyes to the River. “Immortals, eh? Bring it.”